Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Frustrated

So this past weekend a friend of mine had her bridal/bachelorette party. I am a personal attendant and she has been a good friend for a long time, though we have grown apart a bit because I have kids and different priorities in life. So I knew that this was not going to be my scene but I felt I should go and not be 'to good for everyone else.' So I went and for starters I was the only one not informed of the baseball theme, so I was not wearing a jersey or baseball shirt like the rest. I was ok with this. Then throughout the night I was the photographer but was only asked to be in the one group picture that the bus driver took. Feeling a little left out but ok with it. I wasn't really into it. Drinking to get drunk, seeing married women all over men they didn't know just because they are drunk, and a soon to be bride/wife, doing thing that are just not appropriate(to put it nicely). I just don't understand what is so great about these bachelorette/last night single parties. The things that they do I wouldn't do even if I weren't married. I just don't understand why anyone would want to go out like this if they truly had found the man/woman of their dreams that God intended them to be with. It really just doesn't make any sense.
But on another note, the topper of my night was that after the fact I now have friends and certain relatives that think that I'm depressed because I didn't partake in the nights events! It was bad enough that I felt left out at times but the fact that I decided to sit back and have conversations with people that I ran into that night made me depressed! I was and needless to say still am a little upset over it but I guess whatever. It's not my scene, never has been and never will be. So thanks for letting me vent because it has really been bothering me:) Hope you have a blessed holy week!

3 comments:

Jamie Jo said...

Oh, Amanda, I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I wouldn't put myself through that anymore. I hope you know who your true friends are. And that they know you are not depressed at all. Frustrated and saddened maybe by the way the world is maybe.

I hope you are able to brush it off and go on and keep being your beautiful, cheerful, happy, wonderful Amanda I know!!

I forgot to say the other day, we are excited to see your cute little "Charlotte" in her glasses, I bet she looks so cute!!

PS your meal was wonderful, thank you so much!! Angela and had the leftovers for 2 days!! I think she ate more than me!

Jamie Jo said...

I meant to say "Angela and I"!!

Amanda said...

Thanks! I know and trust me it was my last "night out" in that way. I just had to laugh at first and then it bothered me that people actually thought that. I do know who my true friends are:) Thanks and glad you enjoyed the food. I'll see you tomorrow!